Feeling Down

So I am feeling really gloomy today and I am not sure why. It was sudden too, like I was having a great day and now I am just really blah. I am trying to pack and I have new plans and I am really excited but for some reason I am ready to cry... I keep looking for a way out. I am on Twitch plus I noticed I did not give you guys a link to donation page. I could also be down because of the rain which brings me to this my friend started a go fund me.  I am hunting down videos of my son to try and catch up his youtube and I might start a blog about him as well I am just not sure yet. I kind of want him to get into blogging too when he is old enough. He is a ham he makes all sorts of videos now since apparently youtube is life. I should be happy but I feel really icky. I keep looking for a distraction. People expect you to just be in a good mood and if you feel bad they expect you to know why or to perk up around them. I just want people to validate the way other people feel instead of trying to change them. I do not know what that would sound like but I am sure more people would feel good about living...I love my son an most people around me I am a social creature but this ms has changed all of that...