gaming/crafting rant

When I game I feel like a kid. I move like badly. I know where I want to be and what I want to do but it just does not happen. The same goes for my crafting. It is upsetting when I have to ask for help. I mostly stopped twitching because of our internet but the other reason is I am embarrassed. I cringe watching me play so I do not want other people to have to see it. When I craft I cannot craft alone. I am so unstable and to be honest I hate it. I stopped crocheting because my stitches look weird and bad. I am a crazy perfectionist. Which is hard since having ms has made doing anything accurately very difficult. Although I feel unstable doing anything. So I know this is short but I am working on a really long post that I plan to make into a three post series. It will be about what it is like dealing with my ms before I get treatment. I just recently received my first paper that officially says I have ms I still have tons of tests to go through before I can receive treatment. I may work on a vlog and try to get back into twitch, etc. I am hunting a picture of me and my sister with our fist playstation but this is me and my little man way before I got sick...