Sunday, April 30, 2017

Liar

I am often accused of lying or exaggerating about my situation. Most commonly from people who do not see me in my day to day life. It hurts to be told that. Especially after I spend my days convincing myself I am not crazy and I do feel these things. When something abnormal occurs I often do my best to take a step back and ask myself what is happening. I ask myself what I am feeling exactly and what may have caused it. If it's back pain for example, I would look at how I have treated my back all day... I'll be the first person to say "well what did you expect when you slouch all day"  If something occurs and I can share it (like if my heart is beating fast or just funny)I do so I can make sure it is not just me. So when these people say I'm exaggerating or lying it hurts.This is where I start a new thing. I am going to start adding definitions. I have been called a hypochondriac (according to called the mayo clinic is defined as illness anxiety disorder, sometimes called hypochondria or health anxiety, is worrying excessively that you are or may become seriously ill. You may have no physical symptoms. Or you may believe that normal body sensations or minor symptoms are signs of severe illness, even though a thorough medical exam doesn't reveal a serious medical condition.) To me when they found the lesions that meant this was not a figment of my imagination.

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