Trying to conform

In order to accomplish something anything really... I have moved in with my aunt to be close to my dad. Hopefully I can get somewhere this way. I am afraid of the pain in my arms because I recognize it to be nerve damage. I use my arms a lot and cannot imagine them being like my legs. I am doing what I can as fast as I can to get treated but it seems like a lot to me. I suppose the fact the I am no where is my fault. I try really hard and get tired of people acting like I do not try hard enough. I get tired of being told what to do and how to do it when it comes to my son. I am in an extensive amount of pain and because I hide it to the best of my ability people refuse to take my word for it. I do not whine and cry because my pain is my pain and I refuse to let it be an annoyance to those around me. This is probably why people do not understand I am not sure how to make them understand either. I assume I will sort it out.

New Ideas

So, I have some ideas to try and make a little money. Of course I cannot do it without followers. I have been using twitch. It is a place where I can game and get paid for it eventually. I would like to be able to make a separate blog for it. I also thought I might go back on youtube one for my son, one for me and maybe one for my gaming. However, this is a lot for me to handle so I am not sure how well I will do with it. I also have a great ides for an app for people with health problems but I want to get a patent first and I have no idea how to make the app. I am trying hard to make working at home a thing for me. This way I can support myself, stay at home with my son, not waste what energy I do have working away from my son, and if I get healthy ever again somehow I can do a better job at being a mom and maybe make more money. I eventually would like to get a camera for my ps4 and more games to play. I would also like to get some medical bills paid off, and fix my credit. It is not all gloom and doom I do have plans, goals, and really good days. The only thing is what I call a good day most people wouldn't. I think that a good day is a day where my son is having fun and my mate doesn't get beyond upset. I hope that my followers will check out each of these places here is my twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/shaionriswaifu my sons youtube is a bit out dated but here is a link anyways: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCdUiToEtbJZQPZVT66fGFXw I still have to work on things but so far this is what I have so far...