Trying to conform

In order to accomplish something anything really... I have moved in with my aunt to be close to my dad. Hopefully I can get somewhere this way. I am afraid of the pain in my arms because I recognize it to be nerve damage. I use my arms a lot and cannot imagine them being like my legs. I am doing what I can as fast as I can to get treated but it seems like a lot to me. I suppose the fact the I am no where is my fault. I try really hard and get tired of people acting like I do not try hard enough. I get tired of being told what to do and how to do it when it comes to my son. I am in an extensive amount of pain and because I hide it to the best of my ability people refuse to take my word for it. I do not whine and cry because my pain is my pain and I refuse to let it be an annoyance to those around me. This is probably why people do not understand I am not sure how to make them understand either. I assume I will sort it out.